"You alone have the power to have, do or be anything you want"- BuddhaBlog

This is the last day of 2013, this is the last December 31, 2013 that you will ever get in your entire life, what are you doing to make a difference? what are you doing to make this day memorable? what are you doing?

I keep reading posts on twitter and Instagram about how people are annoyed about the "new year new me bullshit" and i'm getting tired of it. Why can't people set goals and have a purpose? I wish people would just worry about themselves. Having a new years resolution and setting goals isn't bullshit; it's beautiful.

So what if each year you know a person who sets a goal and then doesn't do anything about it.. how about instead of criticizing them you help them reach that goal.

A lot of the resolutions I keep reading and hearing about are:

Be a better person
Lose weight
Love myself more
Make money

All I have to say to the people who set resolutions and goals is "good for you". Having a purpose is something to be proud of! If you want to lose weight, push yourself to do it. It takes hard work to accomplish goals. You have to step out of your comfort zone and find that inner motivation and inspiration to do anything you set your mind to.

And it starts by ridding yourself of the negative people that doubt you.
They only bring you down

This is the last day of 2013 and you'll never get it back. For a lot of the world, tomorrow starts as a new beginning, but what about today? Tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.

If I get blessed with another day I wake up and I seize it. I wake up smiling and I know that I have to make the best of it. Forget about the negative people who are only bringing you down because they don't know what their purpose is. Have a goal and do everything you can you achieve it, we're all capable of greatness.

And each day I get blessed with, I'm working on loving myself. My resolution is to love me.

"Negative minds create negative people and it rubs off like the plague, stray away from the plague and spread love"


Happy New Year

"In the dark there may be fear.. but theres always hope" - Grey's Anatomy

Greatness is within all of us, but it is the worrying, the doubt and the lack of confidence that defeats us.

But in those moments when you do feel defeated.. you can't give up. Defeat and failure are a part of every day life and only strength will help you persevere through it all.

We live in a world that cares so much about what people think and caring is a beautiful thing but when you let it overcome your thoughts; that's when caring will begin to defeat you.

I tend to care too much, my mom says it's because I have such a big heart and a meaningful soul. But my lack of confidence takes over and I defeat myself. I am my own worst critic and I believe that confidence is so important because in order to get far in life and reach your goals; you have to believe in yourself. You have to believe that anything is possible because it is, you can do anything you set your mind to as long as you believe you can.

Worrying will get you no where
Complaining will get you no where
Excuses will get you no where

You must take all the doubt, the fear and the negativity and rid it from your life.
You can't settle for mediocre and just enough, you have to strive for more than that because when you believe in yourself you will achieve more.

Obstacles happen every day, sometimes twice a day just to see how strong you can really be. And when you overcome them it's a beautiful thing but you cannot stop there because when you get blessed with another day to live, more obstacles will keep coming...

But that's okay because you keep getting stronger.

There will be days when you break down and you feel worthless and weak, trust me they will happen. But you can't let those days break you. You are strong and greatness is within you. Never lose sight of the ultimate goal; happiness. Because even in your darkest days the stars will shine and the moon will guide your way.

And when you feel like you're having a weak moment, drive to a good place to watch the sunrise or sunset, the beauty of the sky always gives me hope.

"You will get there when you are meant to get there and not a moment sooner" -BuddhaBlog

"Whatever you give to life, it gives back. Do not hate anybody, the hatred that comes out from you will someday come back to you. Love others and love will come back to you"- Unknown 

Today started out as a beautiful day, I was up at 430 am with my production team filming for an upcoming film festival, we had to get the sun rising just right for the shot and we absolutely succeeded and it brought true smiles to all of our faces because the early mornings and the late nights are nothing compared to the feeling we get when we can convey our message and story through film. 

The beauty of life is creating, I live to create.

I live to tell a story through my lens.

When my day turns for the worst and I'm fighting back tears, my camera is my escape. 

That's what you need to do, you need to find an escape from the problems in your life, an escape from the people bringing you down. You must find an escape that washes all the worries away, even for a moment. Because honestly the worries may come back but that little escape that you can get gives you strength.. 

And I need all the strength I can get 

"What made her strong was despite the million things that hurt her, she spoke of nothing.. nothing but happiness" - j.a

I'm going through a lot these day.. but it's nothing compared to what majority of the world is going through. I cry about life and sometimes I complain to much and it needs to stop. Half the world is starving while the other half is on a diet.. Is this what 21 years of my life has come to?

I use the term "what is life" more than enough times a day.. mainly when things go wrong; which seems to happen a lot. 

But instead of asking "what is life" I should be asking what I can do to make life better.

Complaining gets you nowhere.

Times are tough, more tough then they have ever been in my life, but like I've said before "If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's.. we'd grab ours back". 

I'm just trying to better myself, I've never been selfish before.. and as much as I need to think about Danielle and think about my future, sometimes I feel like I'm in the wrong for wanting to focus on me.

All I know is, no one on this earth knows what the future holds, and no one knows if tomorrow will even come. I'm conquering each day that I get blessed with and I plan to change the world; one word at a time. Hardships make you stronger, at my weakest moments I need to learn how to wipe my tears, keep my chin up and continue to move forward. I will perservere on my pursuit to the ultimate goal; happiness. 

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"I didn't always know what I wanted to do, but I knew the kind of woman I wanted to be" -BuddhaBlog

My word of the day is Eleutheromania; because I truly have an intense and irresistible desire for freedom. 

Freedom from my mind

Freedom from all the pain

Freedom from the negative

Freedom from this place..

I am a wanderer; I could pick up and find a new place to call it home each year if I had the money to do it.. and honestly one day I will.

I have all this passion and drive and inspiration built up inside me and I wish I could set it free all at once, but it takes time. Everything takes time and like Buddha says "The trouble is, you think you have time". 

I could sit here on my uncomfortable dorm bed all day and write.. Sometimes my voice doesn't speak up when I need it most and that can be a problem, but sometimes I feel like I write because I don't know what i'm really thinking until I read what I say. I hope that makes sense, but to put it in a broader definition.. writing is my voice.

Finding yourself isn't easy; it's actually one of the hardest things you'll go through in life. But that moment when you do find who you are.. I bet it's so beautiful.

Not knowing is scary, but once you finally know... that's when you realize that you have so much ahead of you

"Always keep your chin up and your eyes looking forward. The rearview mirror is for the past and you should always be looking ahead" -BuddhaBlog

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